i juz cnnt take it animore. im juz too tired. hav so many things in due. sch project, tutorials, test and not forgetting my werk. im not blaming my werk tis tym coz act im able to come to wer on tym IF i hadnt stay up late to do my BF. wat fuckin BF. yup. slept at 6 n hav to wake up at 7 bt i juz couldnt open my eyes. wat i did for BF was juz a rough wan n i wanted wee rong to re write it back n she said 'OK'. BT stil she didnt come to sch 2day. how am i suppose to finish up all the things due for 2day.
I had to go werk later at 8 and today i am miting my grp mates at 5. tat means i hav to go back 7. imagine having to rush back home n within 1 hri hav to reach werk. hw is tat possible bt yet i did not complain a thing to my boss. coz i knew from the start tat wit a new post ders more responsibilties for me.
2nite, im comin back at 2am. i hav to finish my maths tutorial, IAC, BF and bizca. wanted to do it in sch bt i juz cnt. i dun hav the energy BT STIL ppl dun understnd. its reali2 tiring for me. i juz need a lil favour frm u BT u cnnt help me. u tell me, is tis fair for me?? haiz. i reali felt hurt, upset n evrytink. hadnt been eating n slpin well. i tink im gonna get sick again.
i felt better now after letting it out on ashikin. thks bt no thks shikin. i need to do things on my own. if not i wnt learn. tis is not toturing bt the process of learnin wit ***** as my team mates. hw unlucky. ppl juz noe hw to tink of themselves. hav they spare a tot of me?? ever?
seriously, hav u ever tot of leaving the world. yes i hav. a few mintes ago. i cnt stand it animore. it seems tat living a world of ur own is indeed the hardest thing for me. juggle wit ur finance. no werk means no money. no money means no sch. no sch means no life. u tell me. all of u shld b glad tat U dun hav to do tis in order to stay on in sch. bt y is it so unfair for me?? y cnt i juz b a selfish person, tinkin of onli myself? tat way i dun hav to go to werk, worryin bout them hu hav to werk so hard coz of notenuf crew. y cnt i juz b stupid? tat way i dun hav to go to sch, i dun hav to werk so hard, i cn juz slack evryday. joining all the undergrounds ppl.
tis is seriously troubling me. im not suit in a sch. i cnnt take stress n its hard for me to think of many things at once. i would get migrains easily. seriously my dear frends, i juz cnnt take lyf animore. the life im leading now is definitely NOT for me. im not jokin. i reali cnnt take it.