loneliness is wat i fear.
opening up is wat i'm reluctant.
a mistake done b4,a scar i cant remove.
my cheery smile can't heal,
but certainly i can conceal.
my mood swings like a swing,
up n down,forward n back.
i flirt,i hav fling.
but i'm not into it...it all bcomes a blink.
passing fast,i remember none.
tonite,i think.
how i wld love 'her' to see,
the attitude i inherit frm 'her'.
the lesson she taught me.
my supposed-to-be lecturer has left me,
wat m i goin to do without her?
i turn to my friends,they r nowhere around me.
when i get desperate,i turn to bad habits.
simple msg frm anyone tat cares,leave me smiling.
will i recover fully?i doubt it.
truth n reality is cruel.
they make facts tat i hate to know.
mayb in a while i'll crack up n cry,
mayb in a while i figured my way out to optimisim.
'she' my friend who reprimand,
made my day better today.
but when nite sets in,i changed again.
how i wish i can hibernate,n leave all my woes bhind.
too many ppl hav been misleaded by me...
i'm not very happy,deep inside...
but the moment will come where i laugh.
i pray it'll last me all the time.
amirah