erm.. juz cnt get to slp 2day.. coz of COFFEEEEE~~ as usual. n watsmore, my head getting kinda itchy.. FUCK FUCK FUCK.. i tink im gonna rebond it soon.. i super hate it wen i cnnt evn scrub my own head.. u noe i always do tat wen im stress or wen im in kinda whirl state.. bt FUCK tis few days.. its makin me maddd~~ aarghhhh~~ okie anw, later gonna mit my gangs.. ahaha.. best best.. esp adli..
Anw, juz now adli was supposed to wait for me coz afta tat we planned to go out ton sumwer bt den he fell aslp halfway waiting so told him to go back home ferst.. he's been werkin hard tis past few days. evn tmr morning b4 goin to JB. n i dun hav any idea y.. i tink he's short of cash bt he didnt tell me anytink.. ermmm y he nvr tell me arh?? or shld i ask? nvrmnd.. lets wait..kecian 'kwn' aku nie.. bt i juz hope he wld tell me the problem his facing.. so tat i cn help??
regarding my other line. haiz.. i dunno wats gonna happen.. bt i'll b dead soon.. coz im such my parents will find out bout it. n watsmore, ive kept it frm dem TAT longgg~~ im soooo stupid.. yeah.. i declare myself one.. im soo NOT ready to face all tis.. ive been a fool.. haiz..
right~~ since tis is MY blog.. i guess i wana let out sumtink.. sumtink tat i DUn evn dare to talk to evn myself. ermm.. frm my previous post i noe ive said bout faiz, den adli den dan.. erm.. im kinda fucked up now.. coz im stuck wit these 3 guyz. bt finally 1 down.. 2 more to go. i feell sooo bad.. i dun wan to call myself that 'word'. the word that i myself am scare to say out. i seriously dunno wats up wit me. i feel ive played around bt i juz dunno wat to do. afta a day out wit A, i'll be thinkin of F the whole nite. or afta a day out wit F, i'll b thinkin of A allt the nite. im such a ****. fuck.. god wat shld i do?? bt recently im always wit A coz F is out of town n god noes wat his doing der. i dun wan to b fool animore. i hate the feeling bt i juz kept it to myself. im nice to anyone tb plz dun take advantage of me. i hate the aftermath. now, tis reali make me feel lyk cryin. ferst dan, den faiz den adli. so now nic, plz dun come into my life.. GO AWAY.. stay far away frm me cnnn?? i juz hope anybody hu noes bout my life dun get the wrg idea coz im not TAT kind of person. im juz in a confuse state.. evrytink is so sudden. im not playin wit anyone its juz a feelings in me. Im tryin hard to get to the right path of my relationship life.
to be cared,
to be protected.
to be showered with everything,
but why am i not happy?
too much comparing,
or simple fact of feeling.
patience to the perfect one,
held no confidence in this speech.
the one i care is reluctant of my affection,
the one i don't care,
is slowly shifting my mind.
loneliness is scary,
the shoulder that allows me to lean.
i'm swept away by facts,
not emotions.
people says its wrong,
but images reassures me they're truth.
how can my simple life be so laborious.
where has my craziness gone,
fear wants my feet on ground.
i'm studying a relationship,
working it out,
so it turns to perfection.
ideas towards my heart were fenced cleverly,
i'm walking towards a story.
a story i write,
is it incorrect that my life is moving this way.
i'm fearful of regrets,
i'm tired of walking alone.
my character is evaporating,
i'm responsible for exposing them to the sun.
this pressurized heat.
i'm so tired of being ignored,
out of the picture.
i have no more tears,
only thoughts so tangled up.
p.s: all in one night...
Hey. The name is Amirah. They call me Amirah or Mira.
NURUL
MY BABY BRO!
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