i couldn't cry,
i wonder why.
yet i sense the rage within me,
its me against myself.
i'm only a penny in heart of the gloaters,
my heart has changed,
to an ironical state.
comparations only makes me baleful,
i know i can't hold a candle to the free spirited.
am i gullible?
am i such an idiot?!
its true.. my gut feeling, endless nytes dream, thoughts always tells me the truth. Im speechless. Evn i dun noe the real truth bt i cn rougly sense it. I shant go on animore. Sick nt physically bt mentally. No reason to feel sad. Ive cried enuf n its of no use. Im far away n i cnt chnge fate. IF only i didnt go china..
*Apa slhku kau buatku begini..
Telah byk yg kuberi..
sejak dulu lagi..
Pergorbanan tiada perna jemu..
Hanyalah tuhan saja.
bisa menentukan smua..*