for a moment there, i couldnt believe wat im lookin at.
i couldnt accept fact that all these is happening.. to me, my family or my dearest siblings.
i juz cldnt.
i nearly breakdown in front of them but managed to hold back the tears.
this is impossible.
im hitting a rough patch of life.
i juz dunno hu to talk to.
i feel uneasy.
its reali hurting me.
both my siblings are admitted in hospital now. n i juz feel bad. i was nvr there for them. wat sister am i?
my sister were diagnosed of skin disease n thus needed transplant. i dun evn recognized her face now. its lyk... err.. deform.. i was juz thinking hw her frends wld treat her. i feel bad. really bad..
my brother had asthma this morning n he's also admitted. haiz.. another bad luck. he's nvr had sthma b4 n only now?? i juz dunno wats happening.. with his difficulty breathing juz now n was crawling to my bed to wake me up really scares me.. i feel so bad. im useless
tis is so stressing me up. never ending problems.. i juz feel lyk gving up. but looking at them.. im tryin to bring up the courage. im tryin. i need help. i need people to be by my side. for now.. goodbye outside world. i juz need to b with my family now. they need me. n i need them.