i view back all my post
goodness!! its been long since i wrote a happy post.
wats wrg wit me.
i told lah dat i cn feel my head growing bigger to the front
n she make a joke out of it. thks lah.
ive been down wit bad luck tis few mnths
suffering from mental illnesses
that make me go berserk
people leavin me, day after day.
and wat is known to be life jokes are made out to b reality.
im changing
ur changing
evrybody's changing
so how?
how do we live in a world lyk tis?
i juz wish to hav a break.
i wish to b alone
i wish to juz run away frm problems
i wish to run away frm reality
i wanna b a happie person
i wanna juz study/learn
i wanna lead a normal life.
y cnt i do it??
becoz nobody is perfect.
nobody owns ur life.
nobody cn decide fate.
nobody...
i wonder.. if allah were to dcide fate.
does tat mean, ive done lots of wrg in my life?
tat im being punished tis way?
im juz sorry to b questionin it tis way.
i dun need a reason or answer
for i noe allah will hear me.
its juz a matter of time.
i juz hope evrytink wld be over b4 the beginnin of the new future.