If i get to turn back time, i would... have not joined coffeebean. My life has been revolvin around coffeebean. Now, i view it as a place where... hatred are evrywhere.. backstabbin is just a common activity.. two-faced.. liars.. no such meaning as true frends.. 'help??'--> what word is that?? nvr heard of it b4..
Knowing almost evrythink that happens in evry coffeebean outlet in Singapore, is not sumtink to be proud of. U might juz get ur ass burn in anytime. No doubt, im burning. Not burning of anger. but burning of all the stories that ive heard. Y me?
Lyk what _____ said, ' hey.. i noe u as a person hu can keep secrets because you noe evrythink that even the HQ doesnt. People turn to u when they need sumone to talk to. You're cool! lyk a diary'.. hahahhahahaha.. n i juz smile.
HAH! Yeah. tats wat u view it as. Thus right now, ppl only treasure me for the fact that i noe their secrets n not because of frendship. which let to two-faced and liars. To the extent that right now, i dun noe, hu's my real frends.
____ ask me..
'What is the most importnt thing in my life?' and i replied, 'Friends!'*confidently*.. Den she juz shook her head.
I was lyk 'WTF?!'
Den she asked me again,'Do you really love ur frends so much?'
I said, 'Yes i do.. Ive nvr felt a real family or relationship loved before. And i only get them from people im close to around me who is my frends..'
Out of the sudden, she gt pissed and explain to me this which i still cnnt get the real meaning.. 'NO BEB! You got to love urself before u love others. Think about urself before you think of others. If ever u get drowned in a high tide current, trust me, nobody is gonna save u. Not even the person u love in ur life. not even ur good frends u claim to have. What im tryin to say is that, ur too kind for a frend. You prioritize others but in the end u are the one hu suffer.'
Seriously.. Her words, have been bugging me. Is it true? I still dun noe whether i shld believe. Wld a frend really dump u aside knowing ur in deep trouble? Part of me says she's right because... ermm. idk. bt part of me says that, NAH... u juz felt that because when ur in trouble, ur frends juz shun u away.
Well...I feel its up to individual. I do listen to friends ranting.. friends problems.. evrythink.. Juz a call away n i'll be there to comfort u.. thats me. thats wat im born for i believe. helpin others. Evn right now, when im juz full of problems in me, i nvr trouble others. id rather i settle it on my own.. Be it the positive or negative way of handling problems. I nvr trouble others. and i know it hurts me pretty bad. that i felt as though my frends problem has becum part of mine too. it juz left a deep impact in me n i juz got the responsibility to help.
Hmm.. I now noe the root of evrythink that has just happen. Bt ____ told me to juz throw it away. No doubt now i have revenge in me. but ___ told me again, 'Revenge is juz neverending.. Its juz gonna hurt u even more.' yep.. i felt she's right.. Bt now, i juz told her that, 'i'll forgive but i'll nvr forget that person till the day i grow old. Bt the question that i really want to ask given the chance is, 'Why?'
Hey. The name is Amirah. They call me Amirah or Mira.
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