hah! wat a joke. u always blame me for wateva ur feeling now? so hu shld i blame wen im feeling the versa? I cared so much juz because ur my frend. i nvr say anythink wen u chose ur bestfrend n post it over ur blog juz to realize its not u when i was always der when u were down. I rushed from home knowing u were not feeling good in school. I did all i cld to make u feel better over some stupid misunderstnding u always suffer with ur clique. i stayed up all night sumtyms when i know ur having a bad day. i accompanied u when u were down.
How does it make me feel?? u think any of ur clique wld do that? i wonder all the time. do u ever think?? u said i was judging u? im so sorry but initially last time i used to. but now. ive change. y wnt u take a second n notice. i cldnt care a hoot if i were to juz ignore u lyk tat but i'll feel bad, coz i was onlyn so y not i take the chance of askin. its juz up to u ok to believe anot.
but anw, if i were to say ur lying too, i might be right. because ur frend hu always were der beside u, told me a different picture of u instead of u telling me urself bout wat problems ur having. it just wonders, if u were to hav a family problem, den y ur twin sis dun hav any? acoording to adee. she's the one hu ask me to ask u what actually happen?
n to tell u the truth, it HURTS so much to have a frend hu despise a frends present when she wanted to meet her after her werk juz for a talk. it HURTS so much to have a reply of,'takya jumpe arhh.. buat pe nk jumpe.. kite jumpe bile skola bukak ajer..' it HURTS sooo much. trust me. this happens when u trust a frend so much. when u thought they were the one whom u cld trust over a long period of time. yes. i believe it does happens to some. but i felt for my case, i experience a person, who like to acts so much that she treat evrythink that happen in her life as dramas. so u noe wat. i 'believe' that whomever frends u claim to be frends with, is a target for u to share ur sorrows only. so sad.
look ive change for now. if u were to be lyk farlyana, i wld hav juz ignored and say i believe i dun owe anyone any apology because ive had enuf. but ur juz diff. ur a classmate of mine. i dun wan any barriers btwn us that might affect our studies. myb when the start of attachment, if u were to do the same thing, i believe, i'll nvr once hesitate. trust me. ive really had enuf after my ferst emotional stress n it has wonderfully made me a stronger person. i wnt regret, i wnt give a damn bloody care bout wat ur feeling. coz im juz numb inside. since people do not treat me the way i deserved to be treated, they i shall treat them the same way too.
this is what i have been keeping with me the whole night from yest. i haven slept a wink n this is wat happen when all truth comes out from a dead in the inside person. no feeling.
Hey. The name is Amirah. They call me Amirah or Mira.
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