juz came back only NOW! thks arhh fana. i was shocked wen fana told me to call murali n say dat he dun have to fetch me n her coz sumbody is gonna pick me us later. i was lyk really 'HUH!!' part of me was expecting qhas. i was filled with hope. bt was ruin wen fana told me again dat a guy wants to get to noe me n wanted to pick me up frm werk.
wtfishhhh!!! fana fana. u shld have ask me ferst n not agreeing on my behalf. im really nt in the mood to noe anyone.
haiz. a'an is fana's bf's 'bike frend'. he ask fana for my number n have since bugging me frm the moment he alight me at my hse deck. tis guy is damn quiet n always needs me to start the ferst convo. haiz. bt right now, i felt soon as i reach home, he kept contacting me sia!! wahhh.. mcm da tk bisu gituu ehhh..
he wanted to noe me so ferst step was fetching me frm werk. wow! bagoz tektik kau ehh. well. i guess. it was ok. coz i get to go back to bp faster den takin the stupid van whch were nvr early.
ape sajeeee.. mcm tkde tym laen gitu. kau jumpe aku tym aku aru abez keje. baju bau keledek nyerrrr. haiz.. sungguh tk style. bt yeah i dun care bout all that. he ask me lots n lots of qns bt i juz reply a word or 2. sorry a'an.. im juz nt in the mood to noe more bout u. im stil sober over wat happen. u stil dun noe bout all this. myb i'll share myb i'll juz keep mum. depends. see hw stubborn u are.
well.. sorry arhh. bt it may seems that im always changing many guyz.. bt im not interested in any. dey're juz lyk transport u noe. i hate to fall in love animore. tats it.
stil sick right nw i guess. im still having slight cough. lets hope nutink worse will happen on my next check up date whch i still yet to noe. haiz. y the nurse haven call me yet arhh??! wen's my appointment OI!!
i dun wish to talk bout qhas animore. in fact, i felt a sudden jitters wenever i see him. n i dun wan to go his gig this sat. really. i dun. bt den. hw? i cnt possible return back the tix n get refund. nt allowed. n i still rmbr him sayin tat he really wanted me to go to his gig so much. n we alr made a promise that watever happens, we shall juz still be frends n nt turn a black face. it juz kept playin in my head lyk a music. nadiah's gg. wat if, nadiah noes bout all this, if i were to not come? i paid for it alr. i alr make fiza wasted her whole day when she cld juz have stayed at home. c? so many obligations. so i had to go. nvrmnd. juz a day. afta tat i'll forgot. bt wat im afraid of was to break down during the day itself. i really hope not to. bt ders juz too much playin in my head right nw. i hope i cld be strng. i hope i cld endure all this. i hope. please giv me the strength n courage to withstand all this blow. so long.