Sometimes the hurt in me were so deep that i cnt even shed tears. i wonder. i really wonder, if ur thinking of me now. or at least, do i lyk take away seconds of ur busy schedule? i wonder if the past 2 years plus meant a thing? i bet not, coz u didnt even bother to make it up. im not hoping to. but i guess, its all regrets for me. regrets which till now, i stil hate myself for accepting u in my life. i hae myself for treating u more lyk a frend. i hate myself for being so foolish.
Not a sgl msg was fine. but at least a wish? dun u think so? even my ex- cliques gave me some wishes why not u?? whennn... YOU were the one whom i ever spent SO MUCH money on. YOU were the one whom i chose over dinner between cliques n YOU. YOU were the one whom i gave so much of my love, my heart n my soul from every other thing in my life. But im amazed... that u juz let it go.
You noe, how much of ur smses meant to me???? but i bet u dun care. YOU never care once even from the start we became frends. Ermm.. were we even frends before?? im questioning myself.
No doubt i do live a happy life now. I smile the whole day. I NEVER once after leaving u, have i frown, mad, get angry or so... NEVER.. it just made me wonder.. if u were the cause of it in the past??
I have great companies now. I have my lovely sista and allen.. They really light up my life. No doubt issues were flying here and there. Jealousy all over. Hatred filled.. but none were cause by me.. AS in personally something that i caused?? NONE.. In fact i fought for their rights.. i always do that. Nobody messes with my property. What's mine will always belong to me. Nobody can touch, messes, play around, criticise, or most importantly hurt their feelings. Coz what they feel is what i feel. If ppl were to mess with them, ppl are messing with me more.
That's wat i did to YOU before right?? Rmbr those times when u were in need badly of some TLC?? becoz, ur peepz were making u mad?? how i stood up?? hw i rush myself from home to sch.. in cab when all i'll be left with is a few bucks to last me for a week?? So where is ur 'good frend' then?? the one u claim to be so close with?? where were she??
Becoz of u.. i destroy my whole poly life. the one which im never gonna step back in there. the moment i pass by my sch, i looked at it. my heart juz filled of hatred. and all i cld think of was revenge. i hated u so much. i hated u for leaving. i hated u for being frend once. i hated u for befrending my frend now. I HATED U FOR BEING TWO FACED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE U SO MUCH!!!!!!!
Hey. The name is Amirah. They call me Amirah or Mira.
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